When the's 'ardly no day

dj_kyosama @ 2006-03-02T11:06:00

2006-03-02T19:07:38Z

woke up again with the worst feeling in the world

scared shitless about everything

i hate wakeing up alone

god is this the only thing i write about anymore

......lame

this is very important

2006-02-23T15:15:48Z

“Everybody is special. EVERYBODY, everybody is a hero, a lover, a fool, a villain, everybody. Everybody has their story to tell.” ~ V

It seems that the fictional characters always understand life better than us real people. I don’t know why I feel such love for characters like “V”, but they just seem to put life in such a brilliant perspective. I need to find my own perspective on life. Right now I have hit a confusing crossroad in my life. I don’t like what I have become. I’m not myself where I stand. Everything I used to hold dear, all my passions seem to be fleeing. I become numb every time I pick up a pencil. I no longer have visions. I cannot see what I used to in my mind. Everything used to be so open, so endless, I wanted to create. But now I feel paralyzed, claustrophobic , and suffocating.
These are words I normally don’t associate with myself. I wish I could better explain my difficult times, both mentally and physically. But I really don’t understand myself. I just know where I am is not where I belong. I feel like I have no time, everything is so accelerated out here. If I stop to look around I fall behind. I need to figure out what’s best for me, and where I’m going. Technically me being out here is the “best for me”. But in all truth its not. I know this…and that is all that maters.

~DJ

dj_kyosama @ 2006-02-12T03:01:00

2006-02-12T11:00:58Z

have any of you been so close to someone, that being apart from them is painful.

There isnt anything i can do right now.

I just wish i wasent here.

Im not sure all of this is right for me.

Everything just feels so wrong.

dj_kyosama @ 2006-02-11T16:30:00

2006-02-12T00:47:21Z

its 3;08 PM

and once again i awake in my room feeling completly numb. Now this isnt someshort of emo usage of the word "numb". For instance. Oh my the world dosent understand my sadness i feel so numb. I honestly feel numb and im not sure why, i mean that whole emo definition might come into play but im not all sure. I slept all day and i slept all night. Now i wont beable to sleep tonight and sunday is going to be tiring for me.

I dont live how mangy the clockwork is around here.

I am sick once again, oddly enought not with the same illness that has been hanging over me since december but with some flu. That thank god isnt lasting very long, its almost gone now. I had to go to the doctors yesterday by myself. That was odd.
It was a hidden little officie on the 2nd floor of some hidden medicle building. It was so damn tiny. But this doctors officie reminded me of those ones that you would see on tv, the ones that exist only in small little mountain towns. One secritaty and one doctor. Both very old. The officie is falling apart covered in paper work. With framed painting of fezzents(sp?) everywhere. Reminded me of my Great Grandpas den before he passed away. The Secritarty was a sweet old lady with an entire head of silver hair that was overly well prepared for the job that she had, she spoke in a lovely british accent and had a mothers touch. The doctor on the other hand was a complete grumpy old ass. In my opinion far to old to still be doing what he was doing. He was a sterotypical old doctor....pants past his stomach...bow tie....med coat. Aggg he was just rude a mean, and really didnt help me at all. Im glad he made me go to this lab to get bloodwork, because i did not want him coming at me with a needle.

Man

I miss how things were

why did things have to change

Im not geting any better, its hard for me do the simplest of tasks anymore. This is totaly not like me. Im worried for myself. It seems my mind is clouded and i cant focus on anything. Maybe thats why i feel so numb.

I think im scared...i cant imagine anything anymore

i go through phases

one day im creative the next i dont want to leave my box.

been talking to alot of people lately, people i never thought id talk to again.

made me question alot about myself.

god i hate waking up alone

i wish things didnt have to change

dj_kyosama @ 2005-12-06T10:38:00

2005-12-06T18:39:09Z

something is horrible wrong, i dont know what it is
have you ever woke up with that really bad feeling in your stomach that something really bad is happening right now. And you cannot do anything about it becuase you traped in bed still, so you ponder how exactly you get out and help this person... completly forget that you dont even know whos in danger. Might even be someone you have never met before in your life. Maybe its some hidden psyche mind fuck thing.

My mind is working non stop out here, but i feel so damn numb. I can't explain it.

Last night i had lost of fun. Me and my friends took a bus down to union square (which is basicly downtown) than walked to china town. China town is way different than it is in vegas, becuase you get that feeling that you're in a legit chinese community not just some shopping mall. Which makes you feel even weirder being white. Nothing is reall...everything is fake....and you feel really uncomfortable being there becuase all the shop keepers stand in the doorway as too demand a password to get into their little closest sized shop that sells bootlegged vcd's of the fourth season of happy days.But i just ignore their glares becuase you know they are watching you're everydamn move. But we discovered this pet store which was really big acually. Oh did i mention this pet store wasent just any pet store...this pet store was also a VCD rental store. Man all the animals looked healthy and were clean....and looked happy....for some reason i wasent expecting that. Maybe i have become used to that piece of shit animal concentration camp at the meadows mall. But this place was three stories...and the 2nd floor was all tropical fish....and i mean they had some crazy shit i had never seen before. They had some fish that were half the size of me and barely fit in their tanks. It was like i went to an aquarium but it was free. I just cannot get over how clean everything was. After we left there we walked down a little further to broadway...which is like a block of nothing but strip clubs and pornshops. I could see the water from there....and it was only 5. So i talked them into walking to the water becuase i wanted to see it. So we walked....along way to get to the piers. We ran around the vast openess that was the piers. There was no one out. The piers are just huge warehouses by the water, but alot of them aren't used for fish or shipments they have become buisness places. But oddly they still just look like warehouses. I would kill to live in one of those. I would make it all cool and halloween and have gothic lolita maids. :_: ok maybe i just want gothic lolita maids. Went down to fisherman's warf were we saw the sea lions and night...well tried to see the sea lions at night....wasent very easy since they are like almost black. We heard them but couldnt see them. So we preteneded that they were being eaten by a giant squid and being pulled under water and all we can hear were their screams. We than went to Joe's crab shack which looked just like Pee Wee's play house....very fucking odd. I had only been to one Joe's Crab Shack which is was in San Diego and it looked nothing like this. Me and my friend shelong decieded that we both deserve steaks becuase we walked so far and our man bodies need meat from the hunt. After that Nhatty beged me to show here gharadelli square. Which is where the old gharadelli factory used to be...but now they gutted it and made it into shopes. Of Course you can still buy chocolate there but you can also buy crazy t-shirts and funny hats. After the two of them drooled over the chocolate that we could not afford we decided to go home. Here in lies the problim....we are half a city away from home lol. So we begain to make our long journey back. We walked along way...and we saw alot of cool things. I got to see the golden gate bridge from a distance while we were walking by Fort mason...which i think is a military base...but not entirely sure. We also walked pase the "Marina Middle School" whose mascot is a fucking PENGUIN! When we were on the home strech on fillmore street we walked pass a crew filiming a movie. And it was a real damn movie too...not some home video. They had all the light gear, boom mic operator, reall hollywood film camera, it was weird. We sat and watched them for awhile. They were filming this guy standing outside of and resturant...and he was waiting for this girl...who seemd suprised and happy to see him...they then hugged and kissed. Wow....actors look stupid when they are filming a movie...ya i know that sounds cold. But its just odd looking. When we got to our apartments i went upstairs and got my movies and we went over to their place and watched Bad Santa due to the holiday nature of the film. I of course feel asleep like i always do. I went home and crashed.

We it was fun.....and i thought....maybe this will change my mind about movie....but still nothing. I dont know...my mind has thie weird mind set... i just dont feel right here...i have no idea how to explain it.....it's so damn confusing.

They alos put out the trailer for X-men 3 yesterday, to be honest i dont think it looks very good.....which is not what i expected. Looks really lame and hookey...and too much like the fantastic four. Not like....well x-men. I got a sense of realism from those movies...that i did not get from the trailer. But it dosent come out till may...so maybe it will be different. Kealsey Grammer (fraiser) is playing BEAST...i thought he was just going to do the voice and they were going to CG him...but they didnt... Its acually Kealsey Grammer in blue make up, lots of hair, and fangs....dosent look like him at all...but just enough so that you could tell it was him. I dunno if you ask me he looks like a vampire smurf. This movie takes place in San Francisco....how ironic. lol

i really want a fluffy cat right now

dj_kyosama @ 2005-12-02T17:27:00

2005-12-02T17:49:03Z

i woke up this morning with that awful feeling in my stomach, that razor filled danger feeling.
It has become all too common of late. Waking up alone is possibly the worst damn feeling one can feel. But people obtain it anywhere so its not becuase im in SF. I had the oddest dream last night....really didnt make anysense for the most part but it kinda bothered the hell out of me. I feel i need to start logging my feelings or something. God i have this big lump on my forehead, i dont remember falling down or geting hit. I really need to check it out. IT has been bothering me all night.

Yesterday i talked to my student advisor for a very extended period of time, was acualy late to my 2nd class. I have to talk to the next person in line today.

I hate wakeing up early....nothing is open. I cant just randomly walk into a place and waste minutes of my life.

Everything opens at 10 or 11 out here

Hrmm i want to make a piece of art today, i really dont want to leave my apartment today. I think i need a break from the outside world right now.
My skin acually feels like its crawling...i wonder why

I dont know what else to say.

i feel like going to china town and geting boba and a cream puff.

it puts the lotion on its skin
it does this when its told
it puts the lotion on the skin
or else it gets the hose
When its done there's one more thing
one simple little task; it's
put the fucking lotion in the baaaaasket

KILL THE TURKEYS!

2005-11-18T14:12:24Z

WOW IM UPDATING! GASP

I have Been having a very odd sleep schedule lately. I just cant sleep at night. But its not like anything is keeping me from sleeping like bad thoughts or nightmares. Its just that...well im wide awake. I mean its 5:40 in the morning right now and i feel like its 2 o' clock in the afternoon. Its all very new to me lol.

Anyways i just felt like updating this, since alot of you have been bugging me to do so. Im sorry i kinda just stoped...i really dont know why i did.

Today was intresting, didnt sleep at all last night. Was up all night talking to people online, but by 3 everyone went to bed. Spent most of the night talking to Lisa which i rarely do. That was an experience, hurray for lamps shaped like vibrators! Me and alysia discussed the turkey holocaust, which is NEXT WEEK! GOBBLE! Anyways i had color theory this morning. We are finaly moving on and working on a new project. We are making our own paint by numbers. We had to bring in a black and white photo that had a strong sense of grey scale and lots of black and whites to base the paint by number off of. I choose a picture of kyo that i really enjoy out of his 2nd poetry book. Its very simple and just a close up of his face. His hand is covering most of his face...and all you can really see is his eyes. I cant wait to see how the finished piece comes out. When i finish i shall post it. Kyo's 2nd poetry book has been very useful for my classes, i constantly use art from it as examples of "found art". It has Also givin me an extra creative spark, as are many other things. I have Been spending alot of time wondering and observing the things around where i live and picking up stuff up from time to time. Been listening to alot of music lately, catching up on all the jrock that i have neglected for far too long. Trying to listen to a new band each day, and that has proven to be a fun adventure. I have also been Listening to alot of movie soundtracks as well, everything from Pirates of the Caribbean, Star Wars, to Limony Snickets a series of unfortunate events. Background music is just so refreshing. I have also been in a total Phantom of the Opera kick lately. Been gaining allot of passion from that.

I sat down and drew a picure while watching conan tonight. Here it is.

Also i have been geting more and more excited about V for Vendetta. I just recently re-read it and picked up a bunch of stuff i missed the first time around. Also been reading essays that people have written on it. I cannot wait for the movie, i just hope it keeps true to the soul of the book. Speaking of V, this week they premiered 4 new theatrical posters for the film. I was only able to get pictures of the first 3, since the forth was presented in a flash formate and i was unable to save it.

I really enjoy this one ^. all of the posters were designed after War papraganda flyers.

I like the one on the left, but the one on the right is just gross.

Um...damn i lost my train of thought....when i re gain it i will post the rest.....blah

THANKS FOR READING!

~DJ~

OCTOBER 13th is STAR WARS DAY!

2005-10-26T08:58:59Z

how in the hell did i miss this!?

to advertise the release of Star Wars Battlefront 2 (Nov.1) they had a huge party in times square full of stormtroopers and clonetroopers

oh ya...and the mayor declared that October 13th is god damn STAR WARS DAY!

o_o

here is what Mayor Bloomberg had to say

"Whereas when the first Star Wars film debuted almost 30 years ago no one could have anticipated that a morality tale set in a fantastic world the exotic planets and a bizarre creatures could have become an international phenomenon. Whereas the relationship that today's youngest generation enjoys Star Wars franchises fostered not only by the films but also the high quality video games that have introduced countless young people to George Lucas' message of hope and fortitude. And whereas the final chapter of this saga, Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith, will be released on DVD on November 1. That same day the epic videogame Star Wars Battlefront II will hit store shelves. Star Wars Battlefront II, which is the sequel to the most popular star Wars game ever released, transports players to a galaxy far, far away where players can relive the epic battles of Star Wars Episode III. And whereas New York City, which is also populated by an interesting and diverse cast of characters, shares with the Star Wars franchise an unwavering belief in the power of community and hope. Now, therefore I, Michael Bloomberg, Mayor of the city of New York, do hereby extend my best wishes that the force be with you and proclaim October 13, 2005 in the city of New York as Star Wars day."

wow just wow...for more info check this out

HERE

i dont think i can ever sleep in the room with a big fat gay mexican ever again

2005-10-16T19:04:14Z

errr

you know up till last night i didnt mind sharing a room with another person. In my opinion its no big deal honestly. I mean all i do is sleep in there, thats about it. But last night when i was asleep my room mate Juan did some really weird shit...loud enough to wake me up. And he did it for over an hour. He was speaking entirely in spainish but i was able to pick up most of it. It was one of the most disturbing things i have ever heard....well that depends. You know i really dont care what you do at home by yourshelf....but dont do that shit when another person is 5 feet away from you. Sigh im just glade i couldnt see him, and that when i did fall asleep i feel asleep looking at the wall.

My other room mates kick ass....like they just rock....but this guy, he is becoming a problim.
I'll wait to see if it gets any worse to like confront him about all the things he has been doing.
I dont like it when other people use my stuff, including my almost $3,000 laptop. But there
hasent been any proof oh him using my stuff in the last week so i really have nothing to work with
but aslong as he has stopped its ok. Last night was just scary. *sigh* I might be over reacting.
But i just needed to spill my ideas and feelings into something, so i posted it here.

Sigh im not going in detail on what he did...if you want to know you can contact me and i will tell ya.

rawr im going to go stretch out or something my back hurts.

~dJ out~

dj_kyosama @ 2005-10-14T23:00:00

2005-10-15T05:55:32Z

Good morning children…this is the voice speaking and today is another glorious day in London!

Um anyways don’t mind that top part…just go out and read V for Vendetta ok?

Woo boy I am kind of tired right now, but I want to fill you all in on what’s been up these last couple of days. I saw the worst sight yesterday in between classes. You see there is this huge fancy fountain out side the 10 UN building (one of the office buildings our school has classes in) I was sitting out there by the fountain waiting for time to pass by when I saw it. You see this place is like ONE big bird path for all the pigeons there are easily hundreds. But than I saw a seagull …and he was eating something. IT WAS A PIGEON! NUUUUUUUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuUUUUUuuuuuuuuuuuueEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeee

WORSE!

The poor ol pigeeeeeony was STILL ALIVE!! NUUuUUu He was becoming a zombie Pidgey Eeeep.

o.o;

But there was a huge hole in his back and he couldn’t move much…and the sea gull just kinda pecked at him and ripped out his organs and slurped them all up….it was horrible. I sat and watched the bastard for 20 minutes. Until there was nothing left but some feathers. Growl I wanted that bird to suffer.

Rawr

Anyways

Went to go see a movie with a fellow Game art and design student at this small independent theater I discovered. We saw this trippy artsy film called “Mirror mask”. It was really good…very visually stunning. Most of it was CGI and done in this art style that I am absolutely in love with. The creator was the guy who made the comic book Sandman . The film was also created by Jim Henson’s company. I don’t know this was a small film…but it was just amazing, should of gotten a wider release in my opinion.

Been doing a lot more exploring of the city, this place is awesome just to wonder around. Lots of interesting things to see. Lots of cool old looking buildings…some old Victorian ones.

I so want one! I would decorate it with spiders and cobwebs…and it would be all decked out I n Halloween all year round! I would also have Japanese maids dressed like Gothic Lolitas…and we would rock out to some funky music! And we will eat candy and play super smash brothers! YAY! WHO WANTS TO JOIN!

I want a giant pumpkin for Halloween! Rawr Fear all the awesome ideas that I have!!

Today me, Kenny, and Asia went down to this part of town I haven’t spent much time in. Its where Golden Gate park is, very quiet and not to many people out. Lots of cute houses , very foggy and misty (WAS AWSOME! ROCK THE MIST!) Kenny took us to this little shop where we rented some bows and arrows from this old Asian dude. The place was kind of funny to look at…Asia kept laughing but we didn’t know why. The store had junk all over the place…by junk I mean several deadly weapons just lying about. There was this fat white dude with a “Sean of the dead” t-shirt who was renting this badass bow looked like something people would hunt deer with on the moon. Twas interesting. After leaving Kenny took us down to golden gate park and we shot arrows for a couple hours…maybe not…maybe a hour and a half. There were people at the shooting area for about a half hour than they left. And me and the gang had the whole field to ourselves. IT was fun we discovered a bunch of arrows people left behind and me and Kenny sword fought with them. I SUCK AT ARCHERY!! RAWR! Asia and Kenny totally beat me…hardcore…my ass be read with defeat…that sounds weird. IM A PIRATE FEAR MY PIRATE CATS! FOR THEY OWN YOUR PIRATE RACOONS!

Oh we found a kitty in the bushes lol wee!

Kenny had to be at work around 5, so me and asia had a little adventure of our own.

Went to J-town and I bought the coolest damn thing ever! I had to!!! It was cheap!!

It’s a rubber stamp of Maes Huges from Full metal alchemist YAY! I cant scan the stamp so I scanned the packaging.

Um we walked around it was around 6 or so but Asia didn’t want to go home, so we jumped on a bus that took us down town. Than we jumped on the subway to go see the embarcadero and what ever was around there. When we surfaced from underground, we had no idea where the hell we were. So we followed some pretty lights for about a half hour…and than….gasp…we ended up back where we started downtown…so we took the subway for no reason!

Gasp WE BE CRAZY!

We than ate at a scary jack in the box where it was all icky…and scary gangstas kept coming in. ONE DUDE HAD A PHANTOM OF THE OPERA MASK! WOOoooOT

o.o

I WANTED TO ASK HIM IF HE LIKED THE MUSICAL! ARE YOU A ANDREW LOYD WEBER FAN I WOULD ASK!? AND HE WOULD BE LIKE!?? FOOL CRACKA FOOL!

Lalalala scary bathroom! The jack in the box had a scary bathroom…you had to enter a code to get into this hallway that took you into another hallway where there was bathroom that looked like a crime scene. Everything was taped off and covered in plastic.

We found some intresting places that were new to the both of us…and this bad ass playground! WAS AWSOME!!! IT WAS COVERED IN BOUNCHY RUBBER AND HAD THIS HUUGE SLIDE! Weee made Asia go down it…I don’t think she liked it…mwhahaha I rule..I RULE YOU!

o.o

Im hyper

Um that’s about it

Don’t know what else to type about right now

SCISSOR IS A AWSOME BAND!

RAWR

The DJ…is LE OUT!

I didnt know people in 1955 were on fire...i did not know that

2005-10-13T01:28:35Z

1. Ever been given a ring? Just that piece of shit Bilbo left me….i don’t even think its real gold…probably going to pawn it.

2. Longest Relationship? a little over 2 years

3. Last gift you gave? I haven’t given it to them yet

4. How many times have you dropped your cell? A good million

5. Last sport played? Oh god I don’t know… fox hunting?

6. Things you spend a lot of money on: art supplies/art books

7. Three things you ate last:
1) Subway
2) Franken Berry
3) some chips

8. What you notice first about the opposite sex: ASS! Lol no…um their style

9. One favorite song: Ippiki Ookami Ron ! lol

10. Where do you live? San Francisco
11. High school you attend(ed): Thomas Jefferson/Bonanza hs

12. Cell phone service provider: Verizon

13. Favorite mall store: Hot topic! YAY! LET ME BUY ME SOME FISHNETS!

14. Longest Job held: Stage Nine was there for almost a year

15. Do you own a pair of dice: I own several used to play D&D

16. Do you prank call people: O_O omg I have never done that…wow…seriously…im like 18 and I have never prank called anyone

17. Last wedding attended: I cant remember….been too alot

18. First friend you call if you won the lottery: Alysia

19. Last time you attended church: when hell froze over

20. Favorite fast food rest.: I like BK! And jack in the box!

21. Biggest lie you’ve heard: God existing

22. Where do you work?: FOR THE MAN!

23. Where do(did) you go to college? Art Institute of California San Francisco

24. Can you cook? NOPE! I want to learn tho

25. What kinda car do you drive? The SF bus system

26. Best kisser? Jesus….he is the son of god after all….psh I have only kissed one person.

27. Last time you cried? Right now…damn you onions! Um the other day

28. Most hated food: FISH! I think sea food is Bad bad bad….nuuu the squidys!

29. Thing you like most about yourself: I think im funny….im funny right?

30. Thing you hate most about yourself: too much hair ;_;

31. Have a secret you can’t tell? No…actually the big secrets I had I told to the only one I could trust…you know who you are…best kisser…dun dun duuuun.

32. Longest work shift worked: I dunno

33. Favorite Movie? American Beauty!

34. Can you sing? I bet if I tried hard enough

35. Last concert attended: some locale bands

36. Favorite Restaurant: I Don’t KNOW o_O I like chiles

37. Last movie rented: dunno

38. Favorite Alcoholic Drink: don’t drink

39. Thing you never leave home without: my sexyness? I don’t carry a lot on me. My wallet I suppose

40. Immediate vacation spot: NIHON! Japan

41. Reason you did this survey? Because I want to communicate with people

Two Names You Go By
1. DJ
2. Sexy

Two Parts of Your Heritage
1. Italian
2. Sexy

Two Things That Scare You
1. Being alone
2. lack of sexyness

Two of Your Everyday Essentials
1. internet
1. OoooooOOo too sexy

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. jeans
my sexy black and red button up

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists- at the moment
1. too many
2. did I mention im sexy

Two of Your Favorite Songs - at the moment
1. didn’t you already ask this question up there?
2. Im too sexy

Two Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
1. for me not to let time go by so fast
2. for them to appreciate my sexyness

Two Truths
1. I like dolls
2. im sexyier than you …hey Im sorry…its science…you cant argue with science

Two Physical Things that Appeal to You
1. Ass
2. sexy hair

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. video games
2. drawing sexy hentai

Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. tacos
my sexy friends to be here

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. japan
2. Ireland (drunken sexyness)

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. make a star wars game
2. me and my crew of sexy pirates embark on a quest to hunt down and kill a giant squid

Two Ways that you are stereotypically a Chick/Guy
1. Im very thick headed
2.Im sexy

Two Things You Normally Wouldn't Admit
1. I LOVE DISNEY!
2.been looking at sexy dolls lately lol.

Two people I would like to see take this quiz
1. Jesus
2. James

dj_kyosama @ 2005-10-11T17:43:00

2005-10-12T00:39:19Z

you know....if you think really hard

Franken Berry cereal tastes like McDonalds hamburgers....and the marshmallows taste like cough syrup

....wow....

dj_kyosama @ 2005-10-11T16:54:00

2005-10-11T23:50:50Z

wow i had computer apps today....WAAAAAAAAAAAY diffrent than what i was expecting.
Computer apps is like basic computer shit that EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW...like MS word and Power Point. The only thing i dont know is MS Excel....but i dont think it should be hard to learn.

But anyways my teacher kicks ASS!

lol

let me explain

he got up there and was like

"hi guys... im just suppose to teach you MS word today....FUCK THAT! Im sure all of you know MS Word...so will teach you a little bit...but what im fucking going to teach you is how to fucking make some god damn money!!! Hell Ya you heard me right fucking money! Im going to teach you how to get a bunch of free shit too! Im going to teach you how to use MS word to make that buko bucks! Oh and if you have a problim with me cussing...you know...saying words like fuck....fuck you...this is college get over it....i can say it...infact becuase i CAN say it ...i will say it a few more times..FUCK FUCK FUCK! I mean what is the worst they can do, fire me? Fuck that let them,m i get paid shit...and im too cool!"

OMG THIS GUY IS HILARIOUS! AND THE CLASS IS FUN!

AND I ACUALLY LEARNED SOMETHINGS!

LIKE HOW TO GET FREE SHIT AND MAKE THE BUKO BUCKS!

omg i love it

MEEP!

2005-10-11T05:04:04Z

Hey guys its DJ! final got some pictures to show you. Been drawing allot lately check it out

and here is the purikura i took with Asia at Japan town

OMG!!!!!!! DUDE LOOK WHAT I FOUND!

le sigh

2005-10-09T19:02:47Z

ok well im sorry im trying to make another big update but they involve pictures that are on my PC...and the problim with that is that the internet isnt working right with my PC....so i cant update....but i reallly want too ;_; sigh

so stay with me here

THE UPDATES WILL COME

errr

2005-10-06T14:15:32Z

i have to be at school soon

can someone walk me to class

i dont want to be alone right now...anyone please?

;_;

MY NIPPLES ARE HARD AND IM LOST IN MY APARTMENT!

2005-10-04T08:29:53Z

I can only assume that most of you know that I no longer live in that boring sand pit known as las Vegas. And now I live by that crab-tropolis by the bay San Francisco. Yes this place has a over abundance of craby things....from crab snow globes...to crab snow globes that have 2 crabs displayed! And a million other things...but I just named the first two things that came to mind. Well this place is very interesting, you see....ok this might be hard to believe at first...but people here...are happy *gasp*! yes and they smile...and they are kind to each other...and they don’t want to kill everyone in their way! I know what you're thinking...I hate hippies too.

Me and my parents drove up here last Tuesday and spent a couple days doing that tourist stuff. We spent most of our time down at pier 39...which is where most of the crab-memorabilia exists. They also had a awesome aquarium there. I love marine life....and giant squids. HEY! GUESS WHAT ALSO HAPPEND LAST WEEK! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HISTORY A GIANT SQUID WAS SPOTED OFF THE COAST OF JAPAN! Well...we all knew they existed...its just that no one had ever seen one alive. But some Japanese scientists caught one on tape at about 5,000 ft under the sea. Here is a picture of the cutie.

SUPER KA-WA-II!

meep

anyways

On Tuesday we met up with Kenny which is always a treat, we went around to china town which seemed a whole lot more authentic than the one in las Vegas...but kind of a scary...but...that’s oOOOk wee.

I have some interesting pictures but photo bucket is hating me right now so I can only show you some pictures of these books I got. but that will come later in the rant.

We went to Alcatraz on wend. morning, which was a lot more interesting than I had thought it was going to be. That place is very inspirational, including when your about to go to school for game design. I took over a hundred pictures as samples for level design. That place is just cool to walk around, which your surprisingly allowed to do. I thought it was strictly a tour...but no they just let you roam at your own will and do almost what ever you want.

Thursday I went to the school early in the morning so that I could pick up apartment key. I had to read thru all this small print that seemed to go on forever. Than I had to go around the school and have a bunch of people sign this piece of paper, saying that I was a student and that I can begin school. We than went to my apartment which was allot bigger that I had previously thought. It didn’t seem like my room mates were home, so we begin to unload all of my toys and junk and art supplies. Earlier that morning my parents ordered my TVs online on Best Buys website so that all we had to do was pick them up later that day. So after dropping off all my crap we journeyed to best buy to get those than to office max to buy a alarmed clock and paper. We came back to my apartment to drop off the TV’s, I was standing alone in the living room while my dad was putting my TVs in my room. That’s when out of the corner of my eye I saw a movement and to my total surprise I saw Jay my first room mate. Its hard to explain jay...he is about my size...a little bigger in stature...and I think he's black but I'm not really sure..o_O I know I’m horrible. Anyways the point is the man was in his boxers...I guess my room mates were here the whole time...they were just asleep because they had been up till 5 the night before. I than met Jose my other room mate...actually I don’t know if I could consider that meeting Jose...he really didn’t say anything and what I did hear was just some Spanish over his cell phone. Me and my parents went to lunch and than came back to say our good buys. That sucked allot and was really hard for all of us. But I had to do what I had to do. When I got back to the apartment Jose had left. Jay told me that Jose is only at the apartment a small portion of the week. I guess his family lives somewhere in town so he stays with them thu-sun. Weird huh?

Friday just sucked allot...it was a long long day...with orientation...and this lecture from this old guy. who told us how to avoid being raped by scary black hobos (I kid you not. he even gave us a free safety whistle) Allot of missing paper work and resigning. and me going up and down the elevator at the art institute visiting different departments seeing different important people. Than I had to carry this heavy ass supply kit home....aggg gay.

More happened on Friday...but it sucked so much just don’t want to get into it.

Saturday was pretty care free for the most part. I had planned to meet up with Asia around 2, but she was having much look that day and didn’t get to me till around 5. It was really good to see her. I have talked to her for about 3 years now and we just met on Saturday. She took me to Japan town (which is a whole 2 minutes from my house but I told her I would wait to go there with her) Boy that place is awesome. Its full of shops , and restaurants, and grocery stores! its like china town....but JAPANESE! weee We than went downtown to union square and she showed me around there. Took me to the metreon which was very cool. It was entirely owned by sony....you could tell ,they had their logo everywhere. But here is a funny thing. The metreon has this thing that they recently started called the "walk of game" its like the Hollywood "walk of fame" you know those little gold stars on the ground with famous names of celebrities but instead they were video games. They had only 2 stars "Mario" and "halo"....wait a tick....those aren’t Sony games!? Gasp...was odd. IT ended up getting late I felt bad keeping Asia out so long but I really didn’t feel like being alone, and I wanted to see her. I took the bus home all by myself. yes I’m sooo proud! lol

aggg my fingers hurt..

Yesterday I was suppose to got to golden gate park to see some stupid blue grass concert with some of the kids in housing…but that was very short lived because there ended up not being a concert because the concert hall was still under construction. So we went home early. I sat there and let my mind just glaze over. I than went to Japan Town again and looked at some art books and found some more interesting objects.

The Book store had a whole bunch of art books that just made my jaw drop so i had to buy them.

My first purchase was the book of collected art from this Korean artist who i am simply in love with. ( i would show examples right now but photobucket hates me, but this is what the cover looks like)

They also had these huge book on Mega Man X!

OMG! i about freaked, its like everything there is to know about the entire series...even chronicles the MMX game boy games lol which were just rehashes of the first 3 MMX games. It had some pictures that were never released in the states and some unreleased sketchs. Here is a couple samples.

each page has amazing art and screen shots

some of the boss art shown here from MMX1 like Chill penguin never made it to the states...i was happy since he was one of my favorite Bosses. He is in the top left of the 8 robot masters.

The book also has detailed infor on every boss that has ever appeared in a MMX game...LOOK ITS VOLT KRAKEN! FROM MMX5! HE IS A SQUID ROBOT! Of course one of my favorites.

Here are some unreleased concept art of some of the robot bosses...including at the top some orginal designes for Vile (boba fett look-a-like) another favorite of mine!

The next book I bought might seem weird but i needed it! Its a book called " The Akihabara Housemaid-cafe Costume Collection & gyudebook" Its a art book of japanese cafe maids. I love the costumes in this book, also the various pictures will help me work on my reall human form. Dosent hurt that the girls are cute too.

The next items i bought were very intresting and hold a very special place in my heart....But damn they are weird.

SUPER MARIO MANGA!

these art the first 2 volumes in a 32 volume series...thati guess is still going on. These 2 are very old becuase they involve Super mario world..while the newer ones deal with Super Mario sunshine.

yikes very scary indeed...those japanese are smoking some weird drugs.

Of course i had to scan the images with the boo buddies.

aggg what else

oh today was my first day of school...ya kinda boring

my first class was Fundamentals of design.....we basicly learned about whats good design and what bad design was. My teacher reminded me of a young mr. harrison. Long hair in a pony-tail with a goatee (sp?) Than i had to walk home with my heavy equipment becuase the bus back was full..oddly enough i beat the bus to my apartment.

weee ok i think thats about it...jeez that took forever. yikess

im done now....

READ!

dj_kyosama @ 2005-02-16T21:25:00

2005-02-17T05:25:06Z

*Classic*

me and my ex co-worker discuss some important matters

DJ Sic 01: thats it, im becoming a jedi
DJ Sic 01: join me
DJ Sic 01: and we can like go door to door preaching to people about the jedi religion
DD: i cant hvae sex if i'm a jedi
DD: i dont like that lan
DD: plan*
DJ Sic 01: WTF do you think the jedi mind trick was used for?
DD: really
DD: oh ok
DD: i get sex and get to ware a cool robe kickass
DJ Sic 01: Priests cant have sex but they still do]

dj_kyosama @ 2005-01-03T00:53:00

2005-01-03T08:52:47Z

updated my DA account check it out!!

http://dj-hatter.deviantart.com/gallery/

BIG UPDATE!

dj_kyosama @ 2004-12-29T19:08:00

2004-12-30T03:09:21Z

ello children

its been awhile since i last updated, and im sorry for that. But i have alot to report on.

Xmas has come and gone once again and i couldnt be happier. What my dear alysia got me was just simply orgasmic....for lack of a better word. She put so much thought into what she got me, i was horribly touched and filled with happiness. She bought me Kyo's new poetry book (which i did not know existed) this uber cute bunny toy (i collect toys so he is the new general of my toys) and a nice set of water colors that i freakin love.

My Parents really suprised me this xmas which like...never happens. They bought me my own digital camera...which i had no idea about. But its a really smart gift and i will use it alot. My all needed computer tablet for my drawing...which is so fucking cool...you just dont even know. A 12 pack of prisma color markers..which i belive were crafred by god himself from the cum of angles (hows that visual for ya) @_@. and than they got me this nice special edition star wars watch made by fossil. i got # 190/3000. But here is the kicker. The real suprise was underneath the watch. My parents hid a little self made ticket that said

"this ticket allows you and your father into Star Wars celebration 3 in Indionapolis"

i about fucking teared up. You dont even know what this means. For all of you who dont know Star Wars Celebration is a Convention put on by Lucasfilm 2 weeks before the release of every new star wars film. It is a huge gathering of vendors, collectors, companies, actors from all the films, and props from the entire saga but more importantly the props from the new movie. I have been so damn excited about episode 3 it is almost impossible to explain. But now i will be attending the event that every star wars fan dreams off. I missed the last one becuase we were moving to vegas.

Well anyways i just bought myself a 18' talking Capn Jack Sparrow statue...and i really dont know why. But all i know is that i have one now...

Dawna and Jonathan got me the 2004 Star wars holiday figure weee the one with the jawas. Now i dont have to order it.

what else what else

i dont know....im not thinking too clearly right now

but im happy

i want to hang out with my homies....im bored ;_;

i love you all who read this

~DJ

dj_kyosama @ 2004-12-18T19:28:00

2004-12-19T03:38:02Z

well im at work

jonathan my manager just left to go out to eat with the obviously gay weather man from channel 13.

so here i am swinging the force fx luke skywalker lightsaber around...like my vader one but lukes handel and a blue blade. They opened one up , put batteries in it, and said have a good time dj.

So here i am at 7:33 at night not having a good time, today had gone kinda fast. Im already to the point of want to jab my eyes out. I get off at 9, than i have to go to ceasers becuase alysia gets off at 10 (^_^ yay!). I dont know why but that crazy girl fills me with such joy and happiness.

I gave her my presents last night, i seemed to of succeded. She looked happy and huged me a bunch of times. Which made me feel good. I wanted to get her more, money means nothing when it comes to her. I got a cool batman watch, and a new batman alarme clock that shines the time and bat signal onto the wall. tis bad ass, i also got my collectable disney Jack mask that matchs my lock,shock and barrell mask and other things

damn i have to go i have a customer....i will finish this later

wtf is a snuz berry?!

2004-12-11T19:07:57Z

holy shit

i knew it would be fucked up....but not this fucked up

behold my children

the trailer

http://movies.yahoo.com/movies/feature/charlieandthechocolatefactory.html

dj_kyosama @ 2004-12-07T18:18:00

2004-12-08T02:20:58Z

omg im fucking freezing my ass off in the backroom at my work aggg

cold...its alot colder on the floor thats why im back here.

grrrr

i swear i need to figure some things out, school,work, friends...i wish i could fix them all

oh well

i wish i could help everyone who hurts in my life...i wish i could make everyone happy.

i didnt expect things to be like the way they are now...i couldnt possibly imagine

dj_kyosama @ 2004-12-01T18:37:00

2004-12-02T02:59:05Z

Standing at my register siping down my starbucks carmel apple cider with a whiped topping, is about as good as it gets at my fabulous job. There is a man wearing glasses in the gallery, lingering for just a little while because he knows that when him and his wife leave the store they will have to go next store to Victoria Secrets. Now, you would think that any man would love to go underwear shopping with his wife. Oh well the poor guy looks sad...i could try to sell him some art. But when i greeted him...he was very short with his "hi"...so he obviously wants nothing. which is exactly what i want to do untill i get off at 8. I told Dave (my homeslice) that i will help him re-arrange some shity Beatles art that are left overs from our art event the other week. That shit will never sell. Dave has been working like a bee since i got her on puting our new shipment of 8x11 glossy photos into their now empty sleves. God we needed new ones for so damn long. Jhonny Depp sells like the cure for aids.

God i really wish people would stop and take a quick glance around my store, so they can take in the fact that we sell a very little selection of las vegas junk and warner bros shit. Than they will be able to notice that we are infact not a disney store....some people are too fucking stupid that they dont even ask. They just walk up to us and go "I would like to buy some Disney dollars" in a shril and demanding voice that just...never gets old. I get a small taste of what Alysia gets on a daily basis. But trust me..we have our own brand of regulars, they just also includ the disneyianas ( disney collectors).

Today was good, in its own little way. It had potential to be a massive train wreak that could of killed millions. But a dear friend was able to help it from de-railing. I have been so damn confused lately, i finaly got some screws tightned. Thank you so much for saving me, you know who you are.

God my head hurts

I need to really sit down and get to work on my hentai holiday card. Of course i will have to use some "ho-ho-ho" reference..i wonder if i should put MC Carl in it...i dunno.

My 3d model for MC Carl was finished today...as soon as i get some print outs i will have it on here...it turned out fucking amazing. I even gave fuzz fibers on his little gangsta beanie. MC Carl for all that you dont know is my original character who is a gangsta penguin...he is so cute..but dangerous. Im developing a side kick right now...im thinking of something around the lines of a alcoholic snow man...sound good? eh?

Oh well

Omg i am so excited about episdoe 3...you just dont know.

I found out a little tid bit about the begining of the film that will let Darth vader shine through the eyes of anakin. let me just say...a very very bad man who kicked anakins ass in attack of the clones dukes it out for a re-match in revenge of the sith. Omg it is soooo not PG. LEt me just say also that anakin fights with 2 lightsabers and the poor guy loses both his hands...and fall to his knees....and get his head cut off with 2 lightsabers....scissor style. Sounds fun ne? SCISSOR STYLE!!! lucas loves cuting peoples heads off. weeeeeeeeeeeee

well i shooooul get back to work

thanks for reading

~DJ

P.S. Heather i will get your coat back ;_;

dj_kyosama @ 2004-11-29T00:04:00

2004-11-29T08:05:33Z

ooo lyrics...i want to be in a band so bad..i can tast it

WAVER #6

you can never see the future
until you analyze the past
but even with that heartbeat
nothing can ever truly last
so you take out your sword
let your enemies be warned
and it will soon lie still
for those tears that you wear
will never be clear
until the poison touches your lips

and it will be there
it lies there
where you finally see
your ignorant life
your fantastic legacy
kill them softly...kill them softly
for they do not care
never did
they love and they take and you will never mistake
anymore
for now is the time for roulette to stop
on zero
my god
is it all here...or is it all there
my god
I love you to much to never let you go

I cant lick up the candy, that covers up my paste
with that no name theory
that has given me a rash
the guessing and trials they never do cease
your mind will never be at peace
I raped the idiots inside
my mind
good bye
I live on for another hundred years
they die
I love
it too much
could never let it go

but let me just remind you
never forget the past
but those stories you do tell...
will never truly last...
for there is always one..
who will laugh when your done
and your ego will shatter like glass
so just move on
move on

there is no need to suffer
for stress that wont last
over something so trivial
for a undying past